Friday, June 04, 2010
Bad Bad Blogger - Long and full of updates!
Let me start with the girls...
Abigail has finished up life as a 1st grader and made all A's the entire year. It was a lot of work on everyone's part. I only thought my homework days were over. Well they aren't - not by a longshot. She LOVES reading and almost always has a book close by to pick up when she has nothing else to do (aka grounded from the TV and computer!) She's really into "chapter books" now - but still likes the ones with a few pictures. She also finished up her 2nd semester at The Little Gym. She's really grown a lot in her gymnastics skills and has a great time. We're going thru some trying times with her attitude right now but I think it's just the age. At least that's what I keep telling myself. Still working on loosing more teeth - 2 down and about 3 loose ones to go.
Emily is my 4 yr old drama queen. She starts Pre-K in the fall and im SO happy that she will be wearing a uniform. I'm tired of hearing "I don't like that color today","not like pink i wanted dark pink" or "I want a dress - a purple dress" every single morning. I finally gave up trying to pick out her clothes so I just ask her now. She loves clothes and shoes and will ask for those above a toy on any trip to the store. I know I'm headed for trouble with those teen years. She too has been in The Little Gym and is having a blast. She is fearless when it comes to the balance beam and was quite eager to perform a forward roll on the beam (which is about 3 ft off the ground) during show week.
Healthwise she's doing very very well. She just had a checkup with the CF Clinic and she's finally up to about 29 lbs. She had a big boost in her height too. One of the issues we have is the amount of pancreatic enzymes she has to take. Basically we have to open the capsules and empty the little "beads" into applesauce for her to eat. It's nothing for her to have 10-12 of them with any meal. Side Note: the enzymes she takes has beads small enough to fit thru her g-tube should she be so stubborn as to refuse to eat the applesauce. Due to some issues with the FDA we are have to change her enzymes. There are no others that are small enough to fit in the g-tube so she's gonna have to suck it up and eat that applesauce - OR - she can learn to swallow them. What that means basically is that the beads in the caps are bigger (and higher strength) so she will actually take a fewer number. We discussed this with the dietician and I was given a contact number to schedule Emily for pill swallowing class. I thought they were crazy when they first mentioned having a class sometime last year but really - they have one. We had tried getting her to swallow tiny M&Ms but that didn't work - that whole part of "melt in your mouth..." is really true! So this weekend we decided to just see what she would do if she tried to swallow a pill. I explained that she couldn't bite it, just drink and let it wash down. And... SHE DID IT. Not just one pill - she continued until all 5 were gone. She has since become obsessed with swallowing her pills. This makes for a very happy Daddy who so wonderfully gives her the meds daily. No more mixing up applesauce and enzymes !! She is so proud of herself - so much so that she had daycare call me yesterday to tell me she swallowed 10 (yes 10) after her lunch. WAY TO GO EMILY!!
Are you still reading?? I told you this was going to be a long one!
For Jonathan and I, things are pretty much unchanged. We both made it thru layoffs at work a year ago and everything is going good now. The years seem to just get faster and faster with kids in school. It doesn't seem like we should be having a 2nd grader already. We received horrible news in December that our 1st "baby" (our yorkshire terrier, Skittles) had lymphoma. It was a hard decision on what course of action to take but we couldn't help but to think of the bond that Emily has with "her boy" as she calls him. So what other option did we have but to treat it. It was caught early and I'm happy to say the lumps are gone and he's in remission. HOORAY!
I'm counting down the hours until we start vacation. No major plans but my parents will be coming down to spend the week. We'll hit the local museums and "touristy" things and then head to San Antonio at the end of the week to see my sweet niece (and her parents too of course!).
I promise to be better about this blogging thing - especially now that I know someone is watching!
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
To Emily
You don't know it yet, but you have a very long road ahead of you. To you, the medications and g-tube are just a way of life - all that you've known, but to us they are the necessities we need to keep you healthy and alive. I promise to do all that I can each and every day to make sure we have done all that we can to take care of you and give you the life you deserve to have. I pray each day that you live a very long healthy life and that maybe a cure for this horrible disease will be found.
You've come a long way from being the green little baby we brought home to the lively little girl you are today. Thank you for being such a wonderful daughter and little sister. We are so thankful to have you in our lives.
Happy Birthday my little girl!
Love,
Mommy
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Happy New Year
Started a new job (the best EVER and I still love it!)
Another hospital free year for Emily
Abigail has completed the 1st half of Kindergarten
I became an Aunt to the oh so cute Zoe
Reconnected with many friends from the past
Probably the most important of all of those is keeping Emily out of the hospital. We know with the CF it's very easy for her to get sick and end up in the hospital but we do our best to make sure she stays healthy. The sinus surgery almost a year ago had made such a difference too - no more sinus infections and we are all happy about that. It's hard to believe she'll be 3 in less than a week. She's still the happy smiling little girl she was when she was born.
Kindergarten was such a big event. I'm happy to say that Abigail loves school. I thank her teacher for that. She loves her teacher and all of her new friends and said she was going to miss them all over Christmas break. I'm sure as she gets older she'll come to love the breaks even more though!
It's hard to believe I've been in my current job position for a year now - a year today was my official start date. I'm coming up on 7 years at MD Anderson and of those, my current position has been the best. It's amazing how different things can be just because you have a good boss. I finally feel like i'm being treated like the adult that I am. So refreshing!
While overall 2008 was a good year, it was definately not without it's low points. I won't go into things such as politics or the economy - we've all heard enough about that and have our own opinions. Heartache and tragedy has hit closer to home this year more than any. From job loss and illness to death - I've seen family and friends struggle with the reality that life is too short sometimes. I continue to keep these people in my prayers and hope that 2009 will be a nicer kinder year to them.
I want to wish you all a very Happy 2009. May this year bring you many happy times and be the best ever.
Monday, December 08, 2008
Merry Christmas!
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Some Good News
Daycare finally saw the light and agreed to let us get a note from her doctor saying that we could dose her enzymes according to the daily menu. Sadly they didn't see the big issue with this until they started potty training her. You see not enough enzumes with too much fat ends up with VERY bad accidents. No wonder it only took then a few days of that to ask what they could do to help. I fully expect to see less accidents now. Oh I'm sure the normal dosage would be fine and dandy if the child ate a normal serving but she's eating 2-3 servings of the main dish for each lunch. They have been given permission to feed her as much as she'll eat and she certainly does that. My girl is an eating machine....her breakfast this past Sunday: 1 cup chocolate pudding,3 whole Grands biscuits and some eggs. She still only tips the scales at 24.7 lbs. I hope with the enzyme changes at daycare more weight will pile on.
Abigail has finished her 1st 6 weeks of Kindergarten - wow that was quick. Granted she did miss 6 days thanks to Ike but nonetheless we will be getting report cards this Friday. She still loves school and her teacher and is making lots of friends - even some 2nd grade friends that ride the bus back to daycare. She's just growing up so fast. She's a smart little girl (what parent doesnt think that right?) but a few nights ago she said something that just left me speechless. Flashback to when Emily was born - Abigail saw her sister the day after she was born and then not again except for in pictures for 4 months. We were very careful of what we said around her and never discussed Emily as being Sick. We were vague with our answers to her questions about why she was there but it was never mentioned in a negative way. Fastforward to this week... Abigail comes over to me and says "Mom, Im so glad Emily didn't die." My reaction was "What do you mean? Die when?" and she simply said.. "you know...in the hospital before you brought her home." I was stunned. I never could imagine she would feel something like that - 1) she was only 2 at the time and 2) that was nothing we talked about even though we knew it was a possibility. That just goes to show you how much young children can pick up on.
Nothing else new going - except that I finally got a new monitor at home and I must say a 22 inch widescreen monitor ROCKS! How did I ever live without it. Maybe I dont need that eye exam this weekend after all.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
What a week!
I am fortunate enough to have a boss who let us all go home before noon to take care of things at home before the storm hit. We boarded up the house, brought in anything that could fly away and were ready to hunker down for the storm. My parents had a different idea though. After much persuasion, we packed a few bags, a box of things I couldn't live without and hit the road for Sanger at around 2AM Friday morning. One thing about leaving in the wee hours of the morning is that traffic is really light...so Jonathan tells me as I was doing my best to catch up on some sleep. Abigail really wanted to stay and see the storm but I told her she could take her "hurricane crackers" from the hurricane kit and she was ok with leaving. It's nice that sometimes it's the little things that can make a child happy.
We got to my parents on Friday morning and parked ourselves in front of the TV to watch any news we could get about the storm. We woke up early Saturday morning to see the news flooded with pictures of the devastation left behind by Ike. The Galveston that we loved to visit may never be the same again. We spoke to our neighbor and he let us know that our neighborhood did not lose power and we had minimal damage. We are SO thankful for that.
Work was closed until Wednesday and schools were closed the entire week but we headed home late Sunday night. We inspected the house Monday morning and found no damage at all. We were very lucky because some people in the neighborhood did have some roof damage. We took a drive around town and there were trees down everywhere. Very few street lights were working - if they were even still standing at all. It was just a mess. Nothing compared to what happened on the coast but definately not how we left things on Thursday.
Here are some pictures I've found online - these were sent in to TV stations by viewers.
Waves rolling over the top of the seawall in Galveston.

Waves crashing in front of the memorial for the storm of 1900 on seawall blvd.

A house on fire during the storm.

Boats destroyed by the storm.

Bolivar Pennisula

Seawall Blvd in Galveston

Houses destroyed

I-10 in Houston - looks more like a river

The storm approaching Katy

Damage around Katy

More damage in Katy at one of the high schools

Such long lines for gas now.

Damage in Downtown Houston

Just loved this picture - they get everyone to help out with cleaning after the storm - even the animals.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
1 in 70,000
Emily was born with intestinal blockage - which apparently is a big symptom of CF. They immediately did blood tests when she was born and on Jan 23, 2006 we were given the most devastating news of our lives. Emily had Cystic Fibrosis. For this to occur both Jonathan and myself had to be carriers which was so shocking because there was no family history of CF.
If you are anything like myself you might ask.. what is CF? Here is an excerpt from the Cystic Fibrosis Foundation.
Cystic fibrosis is an inherited chronic disease that affects the lungs and digestive system of about 30,000 children and adults in the United States (70,000 worldwide). A defective gene and its protein product cause the body to produce unusually thick, sticky mucus that: clogs the lungs and leads to life-threatening lung infections; and obstructs the pancreas and stops natural enzymes from helping the body break down and absorb food.
In the 1950s, few children with cystic fibrosis lived to attend elementary school. Today, advances in research and medical treatments have further enhanced and extended life for children and adults with CF. Many people with the disease can now expect to live into their 30s, 40s and beyond.
There is NO CURE for this horrible disease. The predicted median age of survival for a person with CF is more than 37 years. Sure that sounds great - the age of survivial has grown and probably will each year but knowing that possibility of her not living to see her children grow up if she is even able to have any just kills me. As a parent we want to be able to take care of our children and make everything OK but then something like this happens and there is nothing I can do to make it all better.
One might think after 2 1/2 years I'd be more accepting of this disease but actually I'm not. Maybe I've been in my own little state of denial and have pushed my feelings deep inside but it does cause me to have so many questions that there will never be answers for. I still want to know WHY. I can't help but to blame myself for all that she has been through and I'm not sure how to get over that blame. It has caused me to question God - why does he allow things like this to happen. One of the things that just really burns me is something we saw in the NICU. Here we are good parents who did everything they could to make sure we had a healthy baby and then were faced with this disease. Right next to use was a baby whose mother had been smoking, drinking and on drugs (according to the nurse this was not her first child in the NICU for the same reason). Ya know what... that baby wasn't there very long before he got to go home. As the days, weeks and months passed us by we saw many babies go home and it just made me SO bitter - it just wasn't fair.
I do realize other parents are in the same situation as me and I wonder how in the world they get thru it. People tell me all the time how strong we are but ya know what, I'm not. I dont let anyone see how often I'm upset over all of this and how scared I get every time Emily gets sick.
I'm so thankful that Emily is doing so good. It's a daily struggle though. She has lots of meds and treatments she has to do and getting her to maintain her weight and even gain any is so hard. So many people were there for us when she was born and in the NICU but now that we are home dealing with daily life, where are all of those people? I feel like we have just been forgotten now that she is home and "looks" healthy. I'm tired of being asked if she will grow out of this or if it will go away. No she wont - she will have this for her entire life even though she may not look like a sick little child.
I don't mean for this to be a pity post at all - I just needed to get some things off my chest and maybe this post is more for me than anyone else. I do have one plea though. If you find that you are in a position to give to a charity, please consider giving to the Cystic Fibrosis Foundation. While there are many other childhood diseases out there, a lot of money goes to research for those and there ARE cures for them. Not for CF - you don't get phone calls or see donation cans all around like you do for other things. So when I politely decline to give money to these other causes, please know that it's not because I dont care... it's because I choose to give my support to a cause that could help save my daughter.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Kindergarten at Last
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Friday, August 22, 2008
T G I F!
The hardest part of getting ready for Monday will be Abigail's lunches. She is the worlds pickiest eater so I'm not sure what to even send in her lunch. She will eat salad and most fruit but hardly eats any meat at all. She has informed me she'll take salad and noodles.. yes noodles - plain with a little salt. NO sauce. BLAH how boring is that.
Work was extremely busy - i was the only support person and times were a bit hectic. I did manage to sneak out a little early today though.
I'm sitting down right now to upload some many overdue photos to share. They will be posted shortly.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Kindergarten here we come!
We found out last night her teacher is Mrs. Luna. This itself made me laugh a little. I felt it was a sign that things would be good. Abigail LOVES space and the solar system and here are just a few things I thought were neat: 1) her school is the Creech COMETS and the inside of the front foyer has the solar system painted on the ceiling and 2) She got a teacher names Luna which is another name for Moon - once again with the solar system. We get to meet her teacher tonight which should be a lot of fun.
Emily aka "the eating machine" is doing really good. Potty training is going.. well not TOO bad but not as fast as I'd like either. That's ok - i'm not going to push her because I know she'll do it when she's ready. They are really doing a lot of work with her on that at daycare too so that is helping.
I'm not sure Jonathan and I are ready for this big change in our lives of having a child in school with homework and all but I'm sure we'll manage just like everyone else. I'm sure I'll be taking lots of pictures on Monday so I'll have to post some. Actually I need to post a lot of pics since I've been so behind on them - I need to make time to do that this weekend while we are sitting inside keeping dry from all the rain.
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Emily Update
Goodbye Baby Girl... Hello Big Girl
Last weekend she got her big surprise.. a visit from her best friend/boyfriend Zane and his family. They came over Saturday night for dinner and the kids had a blast playing. It was also nice for some good adult conversation too. His Mom brought Abigail the cutest princess birthday cake too - I'll have to put those pics up too. This weekend we are heading up to Sanger to my parents house for Abigail's birthday party. It should be a great treat.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Where has the Summer gone??
Healthwise everyone is doing well. Due to some blockage in one of her lungs, Emily's had some new meds added to her treatment schedule as well as an increased number of times she has to get chest therapy. Daycare is wonderful about doing this for her too.
Life as we know it is about to come to a halt. In just about 3 weeks my baby will be starting Kindergarten. We've gotten the school supplies and of course a new lunchbox of her choosing and she is super excited to start big girl school. She's ready to learn all about space she says. She's definately going to be into learning all kids of science stuff. She informed me that she did not want me to take her on her first day ... she wants to ride the bus from daycare like all the other kids. Wow - I can't believe that. Well she might ride the bus but I'm gonna be following right behind it!!
Also - Ive added the link to the blog I visit most often. This blog is by a husband whose wife has Cystic Fibrosis. They have been thru SO much in the last year but it's a definate showing that miracles can happen. Take a look thru it if you have some time.
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Another Update from a Bad Blogger
The past few months have been incredibly great for us. Back in November I was approached about a new job in another department here at MD Anderson and was promoted in January. Along with a great raise came such happiness. Probably for the first time I actually LOVE my job. Sure I've liked what I've done in the past but this is truly a blessing. I work for a boss that understands my needs to be off for many doctor visits and doesn't give me a hard time about it. It's wonderful being treated like an adult and not being hassled when you have to take time off.
Jonathan has been busy busy busy at work - often working weekends for a project that has recently come to a close. It's good to have him back at home on Saturdays now. He's also visiting the possibility of sinus surgery but probably not until after Sept. Other than work he really hasn't had a lot going on.
Emily recently went for her quarterly CF Clinic visit and I must say it was AWESOME! It only took 2 years but she is finally on a growth curve. While she's still very small - her height and weight are proportionate so they are very pleased. We took her off of her daytime formula tube feed so she only gets that overnight now as supplemental calories. Her appetite has increased and she finally made it to 24 pounds. It may still seem small for a 2 yr old but for her it was a great achievement. Since her sinus surgery she has not had any sinus issues at all - another blessing because now she is able to breathe and sleep much better.
Abigail is doing great too. Last week we had to register her for Kindergarten. I just can't believe she'll be 5 in August and ready to start school. She's worried about other children not knowing her name but she'll quickly get over that I'm sure. She doesn't want to leaver her "old" friends behind and leave daycare but I've assured her she can keep in touch with them if she wants. She's been keeping in touch with her best friend Zane whom she met in the toddler class at daycare. He left to go to another school about a year ago yet they are still as good of friends as ever. His mom and I often get them kids together (he has a brother Emily's age) for playdates. She tells me all they time that he's her boyfriend and one day when they grow up they are going to get married (oh how I already dread the dating years!) and be doctors.
It seems as if both girls are at a point in their life where cleaning up anything is just unbearable! No matter what I try to do, nothing seems to work. I really don't want to have to call the SuperNanny!! I tell myself I will NOT keep picking up their messes without their help because they have come to expect it so I just close my eyes and try not to look at the toys that have made their way all over the house. We've just started a button jar for Abby so when she does something good or helps without being told she'll get a button - which will lead to a good reward when she reaches the goal. I'm not sure how it'll work but I'll let ya know.
Overall 2008 has started off great and I'm keeping my fingers crossed for it to continue.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Sinus Surgery
For the past couple of months we have decided to discontinue her formula feed during the day and her eating has greatly improved. She loves food and loves to eat - especially Chocolate!! She's gonna have a great time at Easter this year.
We are happy to have made it thru yet another winter with no major illnesses and no hospitalizations.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
2 years
I can't believe she's 2 already - time sure has flown by.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Sept Update
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Update
So in the last week Emily has started walking (July 18), eating real food (willingly) and finally hit the 20 lb mark yesterday.
Friday, June 15, 2007
Update
She's definately developed her own personality and has a little bit of an attitude like her big sister. She's has gotten big enough that they actually play together now and they love each other so much.
All in all - no news is good news - we are just rolling with the flow and being thankful for no hospital stays.
